Have you ever been regretted, when walk through the path of life in the past? Regretted on event that you realize at later age, you just can't reverse back the happening? Well, I do. That's with my beloved father. Still fresh in my mind, when I graduated from University and able to stay back in home town, he felt so great as all of his sons were not with him. We do a lot of talking then when worked at home town, understanding more of his thought, life experiences, and more importantly understand how he crossed the South China Sea from China to Malaysia and started his struggling. He taught me a lot about life, from his experience and reading of the 5000 years of Ancient Chinese history.
As I was young, fresh graduate, very ambitious to achieve my dream, putting up a family, planning the betterment of it, I just conveniently ignore the need that planted deep inside my dad's heart.
My Dad had told me plenty of time that he wish to go back with his sons to where he came from. Guess that was his biggest wish and we just ignored it, having taught that we could do it at later stage.
Still remember, before he was diagnose with Liver Cancer, I told him I will bring him back, and that really make his day. Unfortunately, his wish just can't be fulfill as the strike of the Cancer was so acute.
I went back to his home town then after he passed away, just can't believe a house of 20ftx20ft could occupied the family of so many.
Life Go On, even with the regretted path I learnt, and unable to reverse it. So, If you do have some moment, time that you wish to do whatever, do not hesitate, Please DO IT.
TIME WAIT FOR NOBODY
Just try to drop down taught and to remember my dad who passed away 13 years back
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
Jokes Pick From Internet
1. 一农夫请兽医给猪配种，兽医说：看来需要人工配种。农夫犹豫了半天，鼓起勇气说：行是行，就怕它咬我。
2. 一个男人怒气冲冲地冲进某单位，嚷道：这里是动物保护协会吗？工作人员：是啊，请问是谁欺负你了？
3. 狱长问临刑前坐在电椅上的死囚：你还有什么要求吗？死囚：我只希望你在行刑的时候能握住我的手，让我心里好过一点儿。
4. 女秘书：老板，你太太来电话，她说要在电话里吻你。老板：你先替我收一下，一会儿过来交给我。
5. 王太太怀了四胞胎，并到处向街坊邻居炫耀，说怀四胞胎很不容易，平均要六万次才会发生一例。李太太很惊异：那你还有空做家务吗？
6. 牧师：你们当中有谁正好今天过生日？汤姆欣喜地举手。牧师：很好，礼拜结束后麻烦你把这些蜡烛吹灭。
7. 两个美国中年人一瘸一拐地在街头相遇，其中一个很激动：朋友，越南，1969！另一个指着身后：朋友，香蕉皮，20尺！
8. 病人对医生说：哎呀！我吃的那些生蚝好象不大对劲！
那些生蚝新鲜吗？医生一面按病人的腹部一面问：你剥开蚝壳时肉色如何？
病人：什么！要剥开壳吃吗？
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME
Well, Today is my big day, age 45. How many years to go on my earth journey? It is not important actually, as I had felt the fullness of life for the past 10 years. Love from family, friends do make me strong and felt alive each day. Guess it always came down to what you want in Life.
Read Zhao Xun's blog about life, he wrote down the poem I told him when travel back from Auto City Retaurant Tao (Quiet nice buffet dinner) in the blog. SET IT FREE!!! Wonder he managed to do that? I always believe this, IF YOU LOVE SOMETHING, SET IT FREE. no regret till this moment on this.
Surprise to receive Kok Ang's call on the greeting. Guess he remember more on Saw Lee than me? Thanks Old Pal, We shall go for beer sometimes, we had lost that feeling many many years ago.
LIFE GO ON.
Read Zhao Xun's blog about life, he wrote down the poem I told him when travel back from Auto City Retaurant Tao (Quiet nice buffet dinner) in the blog. SET IT FREE!!! Wonder he managed to do that? I always believe this, IF YOU LOVE SOMETHING, SET IT FREE. no regret till this moment on this.
Surprise to receive Kok Ang's call on the greeting. Guess he remember more on Saw Lee than me? Thanks Old Pal, We shall go for beer sometimes, we had lost that feeling many many years ago.
LIFE GO ON.
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
Friends of 80's
FaceBook had helped me to get back friends of 80's. It kind ot mixed feeling about it. We all were happily grouped together in the 80's, then separated. Some went to US, some Australia, Singapore, mostly KL (UKM,UPM,TAR etc). After graduated, I believed all were struggling to build each's family to the best posibble. Then, here we are, children grown up (At lease mine did), slow down the steps in life, enjoyed every foot Steps we stood, and out of surpise, after joining facebook close a year, my 80's keep on poping out. Guess, in future we could easily called up a get together by using facebook. Just felt nice and comfort when heard news from long gone friends.
Still remember last month when wake up early morning, received a text message from Mee Leong saying "Having breakfast at Mama Store and the Store is playing song from alleycat, HINGGA AKHIR NANTI, remind me of the good time i spent with you and Kok ang". What a Friend! Very Very touching.
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
Bold Vs Courage
Zhao Xun surprise me with the Bold Hair Cut. Look like a monk. But seeing him walked confidently and happily. Well, had to admit he had more courage than me. At his age, we always worried about how friends, teacher, parent, surrounding view us. We always try to behave to their expectation, but deep down inside us, we wanted to do something different. Zhao Xun shown it out, without worried about the comments from us, friends, teachers. If he could stand the pressure at 16, surely he could take up more pressure in future, which is good for him. He really experience life with fullness, without fear and hesitation.
Bought him a Bike, do felt that he appreciated of what I did. Again, I had advancedly done it. Deep inside me, I shouldn't do it as he still techinically disqualify to drive, but when it reflect me to his age, my eagerness to try something new, I decided to teach him openly instead of stopping him. I do not know the consequences which I am going to face by doing this, hopefully it is for the betterness of him.
He is seeing HM to discuss his future. I do hope it will shape him into better perpestive. I only able to encourage him to experience Life, treasure every moments in life, and hope HM able to widen his view on his potential.
He said "Thank You" to me when he received the bike last night. Guess, it is a great moment for him. Fully understandable, but please do have extreme caution when on the Road. Had Been teaching him for the past months on road safety, and I can seeing him do agree with me. Hope this help for his driving experience. TAKE CARE, SON.
Bought him a Bike, do felt that he appreciated of what I did. Again, I had advancedly done it. Deep inside me, I shouldn't do it as he still techinically disqualify to drive, but when it reflect me to his age, my eagerness to try something new, I decided to teach him openly instead of stopping him. I do not know the consequences which I am going to face by doing this, hopefully it is for the betterness of him.
He is seeing HM to discuss his future. I do hope it will shape him into better perpestive. I only able to encourage him to experience Life, treasure every moments in life, and hope HM able to widen his view on his potential.
He said "Thank You" to me when he received the bike last night. Guess, it is a great moment for him. Fully understandable, but please do have extreme caution when on the Road. Had Been teaching him for the past months on road safety, and I can seeing him do agree with me. Hope this help for his driving experience. TAKE CARE, SON.
Thursday, June 11, 2009
Just Some Taughts
It was a hot and humid since yesterday, and with the power out at night, It really test your patient and mind to be cool. Managed to sleep anyway, but wake up early and here I am, listening to Itsuwa Mayumi and pen down some taughts flying in my mind.
How I wish myself to be disposed when earth journey reach the end?? Guess, I surely will like to have my last breath deep down the sea. Imagine, putting on all your SCUBA GEAR, deep hug your beloved for the very last time, slowly deflate the BC and go down with SCUBA Buddy (My Son, I guess), When reach to a point where I am weightless, Look at the surrounding, stared at Buddy for the last time, show him the sign language, and then let go the breath apparatus, Mind flying far far away, brain keep play back my entire life and reflect into my eyes, and then My Journey to Earth came to the End. WONDERFUL. But also hurtful to my beloved wife and son.
What am I going to do for the next 20 years?? Surely to spend it intensively with my wife. Zhao Xun will grown up and will have his life to experience, struggle, to put up a carrer that he wish for, having a family then I guess, have some childrens and grow them up just like what My wife had done for him. Zhao Xun have all the love in family. Sometimes, me and my wife do wonder if we ever have more children, his life will be different and he will have brothers and sisters to share the growing experiences. Again Life is about choices, No U-turn.
How I Like Zhao Xun to Be in next 20 years?? JUST BE HIMSELF and his entirely life. Do not have to follow my path. Life journey to earth to be just a happenning, at particular time and space, we met to each other and share our thinking together, be together and then seperated physically and our taught and expereience will passed on. Everything in this planet is unik to each other, All the while, I passed the experiences (Just like what my dad did), pain, fun, etc in life to him, encourage him to experience it, developed his own mind set, and guess what, I had created a creature which do not fixed into his surrounding, he will be lonely during schooling but then when he is fighting a battle in future, he surely will appreciated the experience he gained at the younger age. He had some friends whom can share his thinking, but most of them just normal friends, it kind of hard. Maybe it is the English Vs Chinese Education background.
That is all. Just a taught, need to go for morning exercise now.
How I wish myself to be disposed when earth journey reach the end?? Guess, I surely will like to have my last breath deep down the sea. Imagine, putting on all your SCUBA GEAR, deep hug your beloved for the very last time, slowly deflate the BC and go down with SCUBA Buddy (My Son, I guess), When reach to a point where I am weightless, Look at the surrounding, stared at Buddy for the last time, show him the sign language, and then let go the breath apparatus, Mind flying far far away, brain keep play back my entire life and reflect into my eyes, and then My Journey to Earth came to the End. WONDERFUL. But also hurtful to my beloved wife and son.
What am I going to do for the next 20 years?? Surely to spend it intensively with my wife. Zhao Xun will grown up and will have his life to experience, struggle, to put up a carrer that he wish for, having a family then I guess, have some childrens and grow them up just like what My wife had done for him. Zhao Xun have all the love in family. Sometimes, me and my wife do wonder if we ever have more children, his life will be different and he will have brothers and sisters to share the growing experiences. Again Life is about choices, No U-turn.
How I Like Zhao Xun to Be in next 20 years?? JUST BE HIMSELF and his entirely life. Do not have to follow my path. Life journey to earth to be just a happenning, at particular time and space, we met to each other and share our thinking together, be together and then seperated physically and our taught and expereience will passed on. Everything in this planet is unik to each other, All the while, I passed the experiences (Just like what my dad did), pain, fun, etc in life to him, encourage him to experience it, developed his own mind set, and guess what, I had created a creature which do not fixed into his surrounding, he will be lonely during schooling but then when he is fighting a battle in future, he surely will appreciated the experience he gained at the younger age. He had some friends whom can share his thinking, but most of them just normal friends, it kind of hard. Maybe it is the English Vs Chinese Education background.
That is all. Just a taught, need to go for morning exercise now.
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
REDANG TRIP
Well, It was a enjoyable trip to travel with friends, family and son's friends. I guess having Zhao Xun to try the SCUBA DIVING really brought his taught to another level. Had been telling him about the fun of SCUBA DIVING. I enjoyed the feeling of being yourself underneath. NOBODY border you, NO WEIGHT, MIND IS FLYING FAR FAR AWAY, NO NOISE BUT YOUR OWN HEARTBEAT AND BREATHING BUBBLES. YOUR EYES NOT ONLY LOOKING AT THE BEAUTIFUL SURROUNDING (IMAGINE YOU LOOKED AT FISH INSIDE THE AQUARIUM AND YOU ARE PART OF IT), YOUR EYES ALSO LOOKED BACK TO YOUR HEART. SO REFRESH.
Learnt SCUBA at age 24, and crazy about it since then. However, when family commitment called, practically put behind the sport for 10 years. Having the refresh courses at Redang, and it is great and guess this time my diving buddy will me my son. Had to admit, he swam faster than me, last longer than me now, when he hold the breath and dived, it posted the image of me 20 years back. It's kind of sad but also proud of him. Hopefully he could learn to be more analytical in risk management. SCUBA is an serious sports, it required firm self control, responsibilities. When you are underneath, Single minor mistake KILL.
In Life, we make choices on what available on hand, Zhao Xun will need to make choices on what I provided him. I am making choice to do that, and he need to choose which suit his heart most, and then MOVE ON, no U-TURN.
It's fun to deliver my experience to them, they might be able to digest it, maybe not. Hopefully, they can remember it and I am sure they will understand it in due course.
Learnt SCUBA at age 24, and crazy about it since then. However, when family commitment called, practically put behind the sport for 10 years. Having the refresh courses at Redang, and it is great and guess this time my diving buddy will me my son. Had to admit, he swam faster than me, last longer than me now, when he hold the breath and dived, it posted the image of me 20 years back. It's kind of sad but also proud of him. Hopefully he could learn to be more analytical in risk management. SCUBA is an serious sports, it required firm self control, responsibilities. When you are underneath, Single minor mistake KILL.
In Life, we make choices on what available on hand, Zhao Xun will need to make choices on what I provided him. I am making choice to do that, and he need to choose which suit his heart most, and then MOVE ON, no U-TURN.
It's fun to deliver my experience to them, they might be able to digest it, maybe not. Hopefully, they can remember it and I am sure they will understand it in due course.
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